Last month I contemplated signing up for a half marathon. Ragnar McDowell Mountain had revived my motivation to run. I was feeling the runner’s high. But then a major life decision was presented and I became completely paralyzed with stress. Running is an effective stress reliever for me — if I can make it out the door. But I was so consumed with this choice I had to make that I could barely get out of bed. All of my mental bandwidth went to thinking about my life and where I wanted it to go. My fitness has suffered as a result. My last longer run was Nov. 24 when I logged 6 miles. That week I went to power yoga twice, took a yin class and ran an additional two days. Then the anxiety got the best of me.
From Dec. 3 until yesterday I skipped running and yoga, which has only worsened the anxiety. Now that I have a huge weight off my shoulders (for now), I am vowing to renew my commitment to my health and fitness. I’ve learned that I need to practice ahimsa (non-harm) with myself. I’ve also learned that I need to stop worrying about what other people think of my actions and do what’s best for me and my husband. I have not given up on my dreams but I learned it’s OK to rewrite them.
One of my goals is to complete a full marathon by the time I am 30, and my 29th birthday is quickly approaching. I also want to get back to teaching yoga regularly. I am planning to log my miles publicly to keep me motivated and accountable. I’m excited for a happier and healthier 2015!
|Out of shape and exhausted at Ragnar Trail McDowell Mountain|