After yoga-teacher training I took a break from yoga.
I went to classes occasionally, but I didn’t attempt to teach.
I didn’t feel ready.
Then a friend suggested I teach at a gym, a thought that had never occurred to me. I figured that after teacher training I’d try to teach at the studio I was trained at, and when that didn’t happen I didn’t try to teach anywhere else.
I decided to give the gym a shot. I auditioned to be a fitness instructor and the following week it was time for my first class.
I really wasn’t ready, but I did it anyway. I was inspired by the yoga teaching that says: “Self-possessed, resolute, act without any thought of results, open to success or failure. This equanimity is yoga.” It was the motivation I needed to go through with the class.
Taking a break from yoga made me rusty. I struggled to remember common cues and I’m sure my shaky voice and sweaty forehead showed my nervousness. I didn’t attempt to adjust ANYONE. I didn’t even leave my mat. I doubt I looked around much.
Tonight was my 17th class. I have improved greatly, if I do say so myself. I was subbing for another instructor; there were five women in the class. But despite the low attendance I’d say it was a great class. Three students complimented me on the class, and one student, who was completely new to yoga, mentioned that she was surprised at how much of a workout it is and said she’ll be back. It’s such an honor to be someone’s introduction to yoga — and it’s a big responsibility. I would hate to turn someone off of yoga by not tuning into the needs of the entire class.
I feel more confident in teaching now, though I know I have a lot to learn. I’ll forever be foremost a student and lover of yoga.